Who knew.

Who knew working there would made me fell in love with a guy that I never expected to...

Here i am now, in the state of trying to let go again.
so tired of being in love and letting go all the time.

Why make me fall for you if you don't plan to make this happen?
Why give me false hope?
Why?

They say when you look into someone's eyes, you'll know if he's in love.
That was what i saw, but i guess i was wrong. Wrong as always.

I'll never understand.
All i have is memories..
Each time i go back there, i'm left with memories crawling back to my mind.
Why give me so much hope and then let everything slip away? why?
u suck.

Tired. i am tired. Uni is tiring too. tired. broken. again.

Is this the last time?

Another prayer answered.

I'm so ever grateful.

Although it didn't turn out what i expected it to be, at least i get to see you this year.

Oh, how i've missed you.

I wish I could show you how happy i am to see you after so long..

I'm so shy i couldn't even say anything. :'/

Go overseas? Please don't.. :'(

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On the other hand, why you treating me so nice again?

Listening to what i say. Helping me in so many stuff. 

I'm so confused.

May it be.

down beneath the part where i don't care, 

is a part of me lying to myself just to cover the fact that i'm hurt.

Went for interview today.

So so happy that they actually called me yesterday.

In fact, i actually gave up for i know they've enough of staff.

I'm not sure whether i'll like my job..

but i'm pretty sure i'll learn something from it.

And THAT will not go to waste.

So here i am, hoping and praying that she might just approve me.

Though i think the interview didn't go as well as i hope it would.

i miss this girl. haha

That soft whisper in my head that says "don't give up"

What is that hope we hold on in life?

Life is hard when nothing seems to be going your way.

Holding on to the voice in my head that says "He has a better plan for you".

I want to believe it too.

I'm sick of saying yes all the time even if i don't want to.

I'm sick of bumming around being jobless when my parents are trying as hard

to pay for the credit card bills. 

I'm sick of deciding which University i should go next because of financial issues and what i want for my life.

I'm sick of pursuing the part-time job that i want and 

failing over and over again.

I'm sick of seeing how dramatic my dad is.

I'm sick of not talking to the person who I once trusted the most.

I have many down times in life. This is one of them. 

One decision that i will never regret...

is being a part of this National Service training. Though it has been more than a year, looking back at this videos, my heart starts to feel so fluffy.  Back then, it didn't look this retarded :P haha and because i love dancing so much, i joined the traditional dance team.  No regrets. So glad that I was given the chance to be there and experience the experienced that i will never get in a million years. I wish i could turn back time.

Amen.

One thing I know that I have found
Through all the troubles that surround
You are the Rock that never fails, You never fail

One thing I know that I believe
Through every blessing I receive
You are the only One that stays, You always stay

Chorus
You never change, You're still the same
You are the Everlasting God
You will remain after the day is gone and the things of earth have passed
Everlasting God

New Life Worship - Everlasting God.

Woke up feeling feverish. 

So much to do, I don't wanna be sick. Well, at least not now.

then this song appeared before my eyes. 

In the midst of how i feel right now and everything that has been going through in my life,

He will remain indeed. 

also, this is one of my fav. worship song (:

NS gathering.

Happy to see all of them again. (:


Su Theng, Christina, Eva, Yuan and David (:

Had a great meal at My Elephant in Section 17. Awesome food they have (Y)


And then we headed over to Food Foundry for their awesome crepe cakes! (:

Knowing David, he paid for our crepe cake again. aiyo.

Too nice la David.

All in all, i had a wonderful time with them (:

Wish i can have more nights like this (':

So so blessed to be able to keep this ns friendship with them after so long. <3

Praise God for holding this friendship.

and I will continue to pray that this friendship will continue to grow and last till our last breath. 

Because not every friendship last.

Amazed at how close we still are even if we don't see each other often. haha.

so so happy and blessed. (:

Thank You, Father!

C.A.M pool party at my place (:

Meet the C.A.M team! (:

One of the group of people that i call them FAMILY (:

so great to share our faith together through dancing (:

I love them all :*

the first pool party I've ever organized in my house!

haha I hope everyone had fun (: 

So blessed to be able to share with them this journey called life!

May we continue to grow closer and our friendship will go stronger will one another!

God bless you (: